Hello! Just a tiny update regarding ‘My MH Journey’ which I stared last week (you can read the first part here).
So if you read last week’s post, you’ll know that today is the day:
24th October 2016 at 09:50.
This morning I went to my first ever doctors appointment (yaaay finally!). I was nervous, but weirdly not as nervous as I had expected. I think I’d reached the point where I was just ‘done’ with feeling shitty and I was ready for that to change.
The doctor was lovely and listened to what I had to say. Although, there was a clear difference between her and the member of my university’s Mental Health Team – who organised the doctor’s appointment. It was as though the doctor had less understanding. She didn’t really ‘get’ what I was saying. I had to fill in a super patronising form, which didn’t really ask anything relevant to my situation. But she gave me what I wanted. What I needed.
I’ve taken my first pill and, as expected, I feel like utter crap. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever felt this sick. But I know this will pass. I know things should get better.
I’ve spent the majority of the day cuddled up in blankets, watching movies and carving pumpkins. A cosy day. My mood already seems better. Probably just because I can actually see a happy future, for the first time in years and it’s incredible.